Appreciation<3

Last night I decided that I have to stop being weak, stop being a cry baby, and stop being a drama queen about things that have already happened. There's definitely a reason why relationships and friendships end the way they do, but it can represent as another obstacle in your relationship or friendship that determines whether they or you are apart of each others future. But for now, I need to appreciate the present for what it's worth and the presence of the people I love most. Because for now they are the only ones who show me that i deserve to be feel safe, happy and loved. And it's the greatest feeling to know that, even when relationships and friendships do fall through, they'll always pick up the pieces. It's the feeling that, whenever I'm feeling that my life or my heart is out of place, they do their best to put it back in place. And it encourages me to do that on my own, that wherever my heart or my life will lead me, they'd be standing directly beside me, even when he and the world have chosen to walk ahead. And honestly, if I were able to keep every single person that has been apart of my life, I would. But I know that is impossible, that the paths that have been crossed, were meant to be crossed only for a short time. I want to appreciate those short moments in time with those people because they definitely have impacted my life, and it definitely makes me appreciate the moment I share with these beautiful and amazing people that are currently in my life.

I'm tired of being sad, angry, confused, and frustrated about the reasoning of paths being crossed and uncrossed, so instead I want to be grateful for the people I've met, people I've taught, people I've learned from, and most definitely the people I've loved, and continue to love. That even when our paths separate in different directions, I'm glad that our paths have crossed, even in that split second, day, week, month, and even years, because it has influenced me to be exactly what I've become today.